Don't Let Me Fall

I've been thinking,
It's a little crazy to me that I'm gonna be done with yet another year of college very, very soon. I have 7 more days of school and then another 3 days till my finals start. I'll be honest about the fact that I don't like school. In reality, I'm taking class to get a degree to do a job I probably wouldn't wanna do. At least that's what I used to think. I know that sounds depressing, but there's another way to think about it. As this year comes to a close, I know my last 2 years of college are even more important than the first two. By this time, I need to have more of a bearing on where I'm headed and what I'm going to be doing at the end of those 2 years.

Instead of thinking about how I might hate the job I'm gonna be doing, I should be striving to get to a job I'll love doing. If I'm gonna be waking every day getting paid for actually doing something, I should find something worthwhile. Of course, getting there will probably mean I'll have to work at a job I don't like first, but you can't get to the top quickly unless you're extremely lucky. So for me, it has to be part hard work and part luck, and I consider myself to be very lucky thus far.

Besides that, I just wanna say that I hope the Lakers get completely Durantulized in their next game.

That is all,
Carl

Love In Technicolor

I just watched the new episode of Glee.

I hated it.

I might be alone in saying this, but for those of you who watch the show or have seen the last episode read on. If you don't watch or you haven't seen it and don't want it spoiled, then skip this next paragraph.

First of all, I know all the episodes have themes, but I feel like this one was so forced, and it was just a really lame way to move the story forward. Rachel was being really annoying, and in general all the romance stuff was just bothering me so much. The songs were okay, I only REALLY liked Hello, Goodbye. But other than that, forced theme, forced drama, and anything that's forced like that is just terrible. It was agonizing for me to get through, and for a premiere, it just made me not want to watch the next episode, even though I'm going to.

On a different note, For anyone who reads this and has a Twitter, if you please took the time to tweet, "#AmericaWants @TWLOHA" I'd really appreciate it. They're trying to be featured in USA Today to get more attention to the non profit work that they do which is "a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide."

Lastly, I got my copy of Jesse Barrera's Love in Technicolor. I highly recommend you pick it up, I am very much enjoying it. Also, I'm listed as an executive producer, and I think that's pretty sweet, so go get a copy!

Carl

The Air I Breathe

I'm pretty sure nobody ever reads this, and I know I pretty much just disappeared, but there' s a lot to say.

First, in case you're wondering where I've been and what I've been doing, once again I just started playing video games and doing work. For the record, I've gotten 2 B's and an A- on my last 3 papers so games aren't hurting my grades, just my social life.

I've actually had 2 really good weekends in a row. On one, I met AJ Rafael who is definitely one of my idols. He signed 2 shirts for me and my guitar as well. But the thing that really made that night was the fact that I got on stage to sing with him. Needless to say, I was incredibly happy to meet and sing with him.

On top of that, I met a ton of new people that night and got to hang out with Rob which was sweet because I hardly see him anymore. I don't know why I don't see him more since he's just up at Syracuse. Oh well, all in all, it was a great trip up to the Cuse.

The following weekend I went up to RIT and hung out with Ryan W and Errol and Matt. Good times were had. FYSY is all I have to say about that. The only negative thing was that I was an idiot and accidentally left my phone up there, so Ryan had to mail it to me. But other than that, the last 2 weekends had been good.

This past weekend I didn't do too much only because I had to play at Relay for Life at 3:15am. That's really messed with my sleeping pattern lately, but I'm readjusting, and I'm really happy to do that because I'm trying to catch up on running. PS I'm cleared and allowed to run so I'm running every chance I get now. It's been good, and I'm just really happy I can run. I've promised myself I will never lose that again because it was absolutely terrible not being able to. I can't imaging what it must be like being paralyzed all the time. So be thankful for what you've got.

Live High,

Carl

1901

The weirdest thing happened this morning. I just kinda woke up at 8am. I didn't feel tired and I had 15 minutes before my alarm went off. So, I laid there and tried to go back to sleep, but surprisingly, I was too awake. To say the least, it was quite strange. The only really bad thing about this morning is that it was SO cold.

Also, I won't say that I'm not tired right now, I definitely am. However, I read somewhere that if I go to bed at the time I usually do, this would be the time for me to take a quick nap, and I think I'm gonna go do that.

To break the ice, I start to sing.

Carl

Killing All The Flies

I haven't been at school long and it already feels like the longest time ever.

It might be because my days at school start as early as 8 in the morning and my days at home usually didn't get started till around 10 or 11, but I can honestly say I already want it to be spring break.

There's all this commotion surrounding the iPad, and it's really not that great. I don't recommend it at all. It just looks like an iPhone for giants.

Everyone please pray and vote for Andrew Garcia. He is a true American Idol.


Carl

Spell Konfusion with a "K"

I accidentally fell to sleep today watching basketball which is why I'm up.

I don't like this restlessness at all. It doesn't make any sense when I'm definitely tired, but I just can't go to sleep. I tried listening to music to calm me down and lull me off to sleep, but it just keeps me awake because I just get into whatever it is I'm listening to.

Looks like the best thing for me is to just wait for my sleeping pattern to correct itself, and I need to force myself to stay away from napping intentionally and unintentionally.

I really want to learn piano.

Carl

I Am A Cold Seahorse

I'm officially exhausted. Tomorrow I have my first 8:45... and it's my Kant class. Should be interesting since everyone I know says it's going to be really hard. I'm willing to work hard though. Besides, that's what I'm here to do right? When work finally starts, I know I'm going to hate it, but obviously I'm gonna do it. I'm currently watching AJ Rafael on blogtv, but I'm gonna head out since I'm really THAT tired.


Goodnight,

Carl

You're Touchin' Me Like Piano Keys

So, I'm awake right now and I have class at 9:05...

The past few nights I've had a real issue getting to bed earlier. It's not that I'm not trying to go to bed earlier... it's more that my sleeping pattern is really messed up. I'm gonna blame that on break. Oh well, I hope that this week will correct it, and then I won't be completely exhausted by the middle of the day.

The weird thing is, I didn't even feel like I had to take a nap today. I felt really tired, but I kept myself awake by listening to We Came As Romans and looking out the window, although there wasn't much to see.

Time to try and sleep again.

With love,
Carl

More Wii Fun!

As of today I've successfully softmodded 2 Wii's. My next project is going to be completely replacing the casing on my Wii to make it completely black. I don't know when I'm gonna get around to that but hopefully it'll be soon, as it'll be very time consuming.

I started playing this game called MadWorld, and it's every bit as bloody and fun as I've read. Not to mention, the soundtrack is simply awesome. There's something about running around and driving someone's head through a spike to techno-y fast paced rap that is just satisfying.

Anyway, I'm gonna keep this short since I really need to get to sleep. I've just recently been really tired and I just have to go to bed earlier.

Goodnight!

Carl

MIA

I've been MIA for the past few days pretty much because of my last post. It took me 3 days of work, but I've worked out all the bugs and after some good softmodding I can play Wii games from from an external hard drive using their iso's. I'm pretty happy about this, and have been downloading and playing new wii games for the past few days. I can't tell if physical therapy has been good or bad yet cause honestly my knee is feeling a little worse these days. But obviously they designed it to be helpful so I'm sure in the long run it'll be feeling better. If it doesn't, I'll have to get an MRI and a bunch of other stuff so hopefully everything will go well.

It's weird to me that pretty much a week from now I'll be back at school and doing work again, but I'm down for it since like all winter breaks, I'm running out of stuff to do. But I know as soon as I get there I'm gonna hate it since during the week I'll be waking up at an 8:45 and a 9. I will definitely not be getting enough sleep, but I'm gonna try and keep it all under control. We'll see how that goes, but this semester is all about the GPA pretty much. I guess now would be the time to start focusing up and really really buckling down cause otherwise I'm pretty sure that I'm just gonna get absolutely slammed.

Good luck to everyone entering the new semester,
Carl

Turning My Nerd On

After an early morning orthopedist appointment, I've been sitting in my dad's office all day doing small things like making copies and organizing files, but mostly reading game reviews and other random stuff on Reddit.
I've been looking into hacking my Wii, which promises to be very quick and easy, and I think the remainder of my break will be devoted to finding games, burning them, testing them, and playing them, since there's not much else to do . I'm still in the process of finishing Twilight Princess which has been fun, but there are plenty of other games I'm sure I haven't checked out yet on my newest system.
I also found out this morning that I'll be starting physical therapy tomorrow for my knee which is a good thing because I honestly want to get back to running so badly which is weird considering I normally hate running.

If you haven't seen Avatar, I recommend it, although some might say it's Pocahontas meets the smurfs HAHA.

I see you,

Carl

The New Year

I've been MIA for the past few days, and I'll be honest. I've mostly just been playing The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess and Super Smash Bros. Brawl on the Wii. I got one for Christmas so it's consumed me. I don't feel bad about it at all though. I haven't played too many video games lately. The last one I played all the way through was Ninja Gaiden II when I was at school.

Anyway, speaking of school, I've got about the hardest course I could possibly take next semester coming up, and I'm actually trying to prepare for it. I got 2 books, and I'm gonna crack them open this week. It's something to do, considering I'm already kinda bored and break is far from over.

I think this upcoming year should be all about getting and staying motivated cause honestly a lot of the time I don't really feel like doing much of anything. But the only way things are gonna start happening is if I start doing something. I know it's 3 days late, but that's my resolution I guess. To put an effort towards getting shit done. Especially this semester cause if I don't, I'll probably just get destroyed. But in general, I don't want to become one of those people who does a whole lot of talking but at the same time a whole lot of nothing.

shout out to Mr. Chi City who shows us how to get it done right here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZ-8SjjGOFg&feature=sub

Get Motivated 2010

Carl